questions of what?

Heart feels, what?, is known for heavenly lord,
Mind says two words, for thy, stay alert,
Fluctuating sometimes here, then somewhere,
Heart scared, mind cries, say my heavenly lord,
Whatz my fate,
Dont decide know, just move on, Your number comes,
Just wait good to happen with you,
Will it be good or a terrible one.
Scared to face the world,
Whatz my world, my path, Whatz there for me.
SO many questions, unable to get along, questions of what?

A Prayer

Bless me god, Oh heavenly lord.

Make me blind, than viewing absurd,
Which would make me think and do wrong.

Make me dumb, than uttering those,
which would ruin my life forever.

Make me deaf, than hearing those,
which would make me cry, guilty and down.

Want to be an innocent kid holding my mothers hand,
Following her foot steps,
Its just she all around me..
She my love, my dreams, my thoughts, my life.

Bless me god, Oh heavenly lord.

Give me strength, courage to strive for my goal,
And make my mom feel proud.

A sonnet on stupid thoughts

Heart feels heavy, many things to share,
Response for my words is unaware.
Heart says a lot, does nothing,
Laziness conquers, leading life to swing.
What am I? what are my desires,
Fills mind with such enquires.
Heart had come across many such contradictions,
Kept moving, with just one determination,
Unable to find whatz that determination strives,
Moving, hoping for achievement that relieves.
Failures are stepping stones,
Heart quotes this with inspiring tones.
All I know is a smile and laugh for a day,
Is enough to live in this world in happy:)