It So Happened - Part-10

Our externals exams in college started, i gave my 4 papers, it was ok ok sort, the fifth paper was horrible, everyone was feeling angry towards the question paper preparer, we had almost all questions out of syllabus question. Everyone was shattered, out of the examination hall, all were shouting, raising their words, talking to each other. I wasn't interested neither to hear nor to say any words, I just moved out of the examination hall, and went back to home, to prepare for my last paper.

While I was preparing for my examination, I glanced towards my brother, i felt he was crying, then I thought it might be my illusion. I kept my concentration towards my studies. Again i heard sounds of breath taking as if some one was crying, Is it my brother, I went out to the balcony of our house, it is small place attached to our room, where we usually stand to take fresh air in morning or evening time. He was standing there gazing at a tree, crying silently.

I was shocked, asked, "Hey bro? whatz the matter? What happened? why are you crying? Are you facing any problem in understanding the subject? Tell me, if so I shall help you?, Why are you crying tell me, I shall help you.." He was numb, silence around. I again said, "Is it love failure? Bro dont worry? heck with that girl who rejected you, Cool yaar, you would get the charm like that accident girl". I said such words to make him laugh a bit, Still he was silent.

Cool, didn't succeed in bringing him back his smile. Said, "cool atleast say me whatz the matter, I shall hear it, if you dont want me to interfere it, Just say me, I shall not share with any, I promise." He was still silent. I got angry, said, "cool charm, have to prepare for my paper, you keep crying, I dont understand why you dont wanna say me?".

I gave my last paper, was happy for completing our external exams. So next is vacation of around one month. I had great plans for this vacation. Was very much delighted, All outside the exam hall was gathered in groups and talking. Obviously they would be talking about the vacation plans; all would be delighted like me. I just want to know the joining date of next semester, went near the notice board to look for it. 

I was shocked to see what was on the notice board, the books in my hand fell down, seriously that news was so shocking that I wouldn't have been surprised even If I would have fell unconscious. So the news was condolence news. Condolence for a person's death.

The breakfast guy's photo was on the notice board, Above his photo they had written the Condolence for Surya's death yesterday. I took deep breath, I was feeling so so bad, something as if I felt like, I have to go near him, and slap and say wake up, how can you die? Wake up... my eyes filled with tears, I wouldn't control myself. I ran from there, I reached my house. I dont know, why am I crying for him, he is just my collegemate, he is not even my friend, but I was feeling very sad, as if I lost something in my life sort.

I was still crying in the room, my brother entered the room, he saw me and said, "so you got to know". What does that mean, he knew that earlier. I asked him, “Were you knowing earlier that Surya is no more? When did you come to know that? Why didn't you say me?". He said, "I knew yesterday it, you were preparing for exams, I knew after hearing that news you would go down, I didn't wanted to make you feel down. So didn't say you". My tears rolled, I was unable to control my feelings, but what feelings? I had no feelings towards him, still I don’t know, what was that made me to cry.

My brother left me alone for a while. When he entered the room again, I was calm down, Was playing games on my mobile. Seeing me relaxed, he was searching something inside his bag. "what is that you are searching?" He said, "nothing I had misplaced my specs, so was searching for it." "Oh fine, Can I ask one thing? How did you get to know the news of Surya's death? How did he died?" He kept silence for a minute, "I got a SMS, I don’t have any idea about what happened." He said so much and moved out of the room. 

It So Happened - Part-9

Another day at college in library, I was making notes, heard a blast of laughter’s, it was bit louder. When i turn around to look who are those, who doesn't have so much of sense also,  I saw the breakfast guy with that accident girl at the corner of the reading section. This time my concentration was on that breakfast guy, though that beautiful girl was their I was not admiring her. I was admiring breakfast guy, how he was talking, the way he used to make his hair style proper, As i said earlier, he makes each day one hair style. He was looking very handsome, somewhat different today. Or I was feeling that he was looking different today, since today I was giving more concentration on how he is looking. They didn't stop laughing it continued for longer. I was unable to concentrate on what I was reading; I was unable to sit there. I got up and went near book rack to get some other book and get out of the library.

By the time, I picked some book and came near the librarian, even those two came near librarian, breakfast guy smiled and said, "hey hi, howz ur studies going on? you leave, you would top this time." I just smiled for his words and said, "hi..", Doesn't know, I wanted to ask him, how does he know that girl? When did they meet? When that accident happened, they both were strangers to each other, today so close friends that they spent the time in library together? I was thinking to ask him, by then he turned towards her and was saying some other joke, or some thing which made her to giggle again. I wonder, I just wanted to go out of the library as soon as possible. 

But was that jealous? What I felt? No way, I have no such great feeling, I am not jealous on any? Walking out of library, I thought, oh, he was the one, who brought the book from that mad person; he is such a monster, he bet the mad person and brought the book. I was feeling somewhat anger with him.

Still wasn't sure, was he the one?

At home, I wanted to ask my brother does him aware who was that person who took the book back from mad person? In turn wanted to ask, was the breakfast guy is the one? Since these both were friends, they would have shared their great works of what they do to impress the girls. I tried, but I was unable to ask him at night. 

Early morning, before my brother woke up, I woke up and was making my mind; I need to ask him anyway. My brother woke up and started laughing, "Has the sun raised from west side today? You woke up early than me? whatz the matter sis?". I said, you come for a walk, I shall say you. As we were walking, I maintained utmost silence, my brother tried to make me smile, so he said, "whatz the matter sis? You are so desperate to see that beautiful girl? so you woke early in the morning? Sis, In INDIA such lesbian affairs are not encouraged?", I smiled for his try. I said, "No Bro, not for her?" hearing to that he said, "then??? For whom sis? I never knew.. Who is that??" I smiled again and said, "Nonsense, stop, its not related to anyone here. I just wanted to know, whether you know, who got the book from mad person?". He said, "How would I know, am I any sort of astrologer or any sadhu to tell?"

I said, "i just wanted to know, whether you have any idea?", he felt something fishy in my words, He asked, "Hey are you suspecting me?? or Do you suspect on someone, whom I know?". He always get context of my question, I said, "yeah, no.. am not sure, But i feel, that guy.." I explained whom I was suspecting. My brother started to laugh loudly, he said, "Why are you so bothered about her and that guy sis? From so many days, I feel you are just wasting your time thinking all such nonsense. Concentrate on your externals. Why should this thing bother you sis?"

After hearing his words, i was sure of one thing, i am no more getting the answer for my question.

It So happened - Part-8

How, if that book was with mad person, how did she get it from him, then I thought, looking at her beautiful face, even mad person has accepted all her words and gave her the book might be. I kept that book back at the rack and then started to move out. By then I saw sagarika, she was approaching towards the account section. By then the librarian addressed her and said, "Hey madam, you dont have to pay the fine now, the book has been returned, one of your friend came and returned the book. " She was totally surprised; she said "what? my friend? who is that?" Librarian addressed her "How would I know, he never said me the name, my work is to collect the book I collected it thatz it". 

This news surprised not only for she, for me also it was shocking news. I was now curious to know who was that person? how did he get to know, I felt I was only knowing that the book was the mad person. Know I want to know, who else knew about mad person having the book?

From that day, I was unable to find the mad person at the circle signal also. So this again created another unresolved mystery for me. 

As days passed, one evening I was studying in the room, I found my brother was chatting with someone; He was very much delighted while chatting. I was so curious wanted to know, who he is chatting, just peeped. I could just see the name of the chatter it said "angel.cupid" is it a girl? Might be.. I wasn't sure. But I started to tease my brother "oh...its a girl there". He also took it cool and said yeah it’s the same beautiful accident girl, whom u described. My rage was intolerable after hearing that words, You dare to chat with her, I shall kill you seriously. He smiled for my words and went away from the room.

I wish that was joke itself, If he is really chatting with her, I shall seriously kill my brother. Sometimes i do suspect if he is the one who returned the book in library, since I had said him about the girl, book and mad person. Somehow I still believe he would have said me, if any thing such was so? So, i felt i am simply creating a mess on all this things.

At college, our externals dates were announced, no more surprise, we all were aware of it. We had four weeks, means one month of period to prepare for our externals. Cool, so attending classes also reduced from the day external dates were announced, I am not good student, but I never want to bunk classes unnecessarily, I dont like it, Cool charm, i do bunk classes sometimes, reason I am not feeling like attending.  Thatz college life, we choose when to go to college and when not, our choice.

Still after announcing external dates we had classes for another two more weeks. Some students used to attend the class. I used come as usual early to college and attend the classes. Breakfast guy, he seems to be not attending the classes like others. One day, I saw him near the college gate, Thought he has time to roam, can’t he come to class and attend. That day to great surprise, he came to class, felt as if he can hear my silent words, telepathy works. I smiled as soon as I saw him entering the class.

Smile from other end was not returned, he came just for time pass sort might be, he wasn't glad to be in class. Who the hell feels glad right? I feel, I feel very glad to attend class.

After the class, the breakfast guy was the first to get out of the class, as if he was waiting desperately, for the class to end. I delayed to come out from class, something was not in mood to be with my friends, wanted to be alone.

While getting down through the stairs, our class was at 3rd floor, at the corridor of 2nd floor, I saw breakfast guy with that accident girl, they both were laughing, might be the breakfast guy said some joke, I was feeling very depressed, May be I was feeling jealous, Great shock! Why should I feel jealous? Do I have any sort of feeling towards that breakfast guy? No, I never had nor have anything? Then why am I feeling jealous, depressed? 

I walked back to bus stop with depressed mood. Without understanding why was I depressed? On the way back to home, I saw the mad person, Wow, after a long back, my eyes kept watching him. He had some bandages tied to his hands and on head; I was unable to understand what exactly happened with him? Why did he have bandages? Was he in hospital till now? Did he met with an accident or somebody bet him? I felt, something like; the accident girl's boyfriend would have bet him for grabbing the book from him. if that is the reason, I really wanna know, who that monster is so? I was feeling pity for the mad person, who was badly hurt. His bandages was also not dressed properly, the wound was to be seen out.