It So Happened - Part -11

My mind was still thinking about Surya, The way he used to talk with all and me, He was such a humorous person. I liked to hear his jokes. Only one thing I didn't like was he talking with that beautiful girl. I wasn't jealous, I just didn't like it. Oh yeah, did that girl would have come to know about this news? she would have got to know, after all he was talking so close with her, as if they were good friends.

With my vacations, I forgot about Surya's death also. When I returned my college, New days again, was feeling as if the trees in college were blowing wind and swinging to welcome me. It was windy season, Cool breeze around college, because of so many trees, made all happy to be at college back. 

We friends were chit chatting, about the exam papers, vacations, where each of us had been, how we spent our time. One among them said, "Did you all get to know about Surya? He is no more now, heard it was murder case it seems". That shocked me again, "what? murder? Is that true? how did you get to know? Who killed him?" She responded, "Am not sure, heard the rumor, don’t have any other details about it. But yeah, have seen police coming to our college, today also had seen one talking something with our principal" None other talked on that topic.

My brother was his friend, he would have got the news, if it so. If its rumor also, he would have got that news, why didn't he discuss with me? Now a day, he never talks to me at all properly. I shall check with him today. Yeah if it’s a murder, who had so much enmity with Surya, he was easy going cool guy. He had no such grudges with any, as much I know; he had friendly relationship with all.

Evening stood in front of my brother and begun, "You knew there is a rumor that Surya's death was a murder, Now don’t say, you don't know, When I can come to hear that rumor, you also would have heard before me, since you guys were friends, Moreover, you know much more than that, Why don’t you share with me? now a days I feel, you are ignoring me, thatz fine, I just wanted know about Surya, is the rumor true? Was he murder?" My brother silence followed still after me asking so many questions. "I am asking you something, would you please mind to say some words?" He still kept silence. "I am enough with you bro? Why are you behaving like this, Please say something? Is that true? at least say is that true?". He opened, "Yes it’s true, he was murder, He was murder." he moved out of the room. He might have come back late night; I don’t know when he came. Morning also he went to walk early; he was supposed to be back to home by one hour of walk. He didn't return still, I was waiting at home. Then felt, why am I making this issue such a big, Surya is no where related to me. I shouldn't make myself tensed and moved with my other work.

Evening again, I got to talk with my brother, now a days, talking with own brother is difficult. As soon as he came to house, my mother called him for dinner. It was so late. "Wash your face and hands and come to have your dinner, I don’t know what you had taken from yesterday." Then I got to know, yesterday night, my brother didn't come to home. When he approached the dining table, even I came near him. His face had become so pale. I said, "Mom, Ranjan has become so weak, why mom you wont give him any food?, What Ranjan, are you dieting to impress any girl? tell tell, let me know, tell me secretly I shall keep secret." I giggled a bit. My brother was seriously silent. My mother looked at him and said, "Sanjana, keep quite don’t try to pull his legs, he is somewhat depressed from past many days. he is not taking food also now a days. He is eating something today that itself is great." I remained silent. I wasn't able to understand why was my brother so silent?

It So Happened - Part-10

Our externals exams in college started, i gave my 4 papers, it was ok ok sort, the fifth paper was horrible, everyone was feeling angry towards the question paper preparer, we had almost all questions out of syllabus question. Everyone was shattered, out of the examination hall, all were shouting, raising their words, talking to each other. I wasn't interested neither to hear nor to say any words, I just moved out of the examination hall, and went back to home, to prepare for my last paper.

While I was preparing for my examination, I glanced towards my brother, i felt he was crying, then I thought it might be my illusion. I kept my concentration towards my studies. Again i heard sounds of breath taking as if some one was crying, Is it my brother, I went out to the balcony of our house, it is small place attached to our room, where we usually stand to take fresh air in morning or evening time. He was standing there gazing at a tree, crying silently.

I was shocked, asked, "Hey bro? whatz the matter? What happened? why are you crying? Are you facing any problem in understanding the subject? Tell me, if so I shall help you?, Why are you crying tell me, I shall help you.." He was numb, silence around. I again said, "Is it love failure? Bro dont worry? heck with that girl who rejected you, Cool yaar, you would get the charm like that accident girl". I said such words to make him laugh a bit, Still he was silent.

Cool, didn't succeed in bringing him back his smile. Said, "cool atleast say me whatz the matter, I shall hear it, if you dont want me to interfere it, Just say me, I shall not share with any, I promise." He was still silent. I got angry, said, "cool charm, have to prepare for my paper, you keep crying, I dont understand why you dont wanna say me?".

I gave my last paper, was happy for completing our external exams. So next is vacation of around one month. I had great plans for this vacation. Was very much delighted, All outside the exam hall was gathered in groups and talking. Obviously they would be talking about the vacation plans; all would be delighted like me. I just want to know the joining date of next semester, went near the notice board to look for it. 

I was shocked to see what was on the notice board, the books in my hand fell down, seriously that news was so shocking that I wouldn't have been surprised even If I would have fell unconscious. So the news was condolence news. Condolence for a person's death.

The breakfast guy's photo was on the notice board, Above his photo they had written the Condolence for Surya's death yesterday. I took deep breath, I was feeling so so bad, something as if I felt like, I have to go near him, and slap and say wake up, how can you die? Wake up... my eyes filled with tears, I wouldn't control myself. I ran from there, I reached my house. I dont know, why am I crying for him, he is just my collegemate, he is not even my friend, but I was feeling very sad, as if I lost something in my life sort.

I was still crying in the room, my brother entered the room, he saw me and said, "so you got to know". What does that mean, he knew that earlier. I asked him, “Were you knowing earlier that Surya is no more? When did you come to know that? Why didn't you say me?". He said, "I knew yesterday it, you were preparing for exams, I knew after hearing that news you would go down, I didn't wanted to make you feel down. So didn't say you". My tears rolled, I was unable to control my feelings, but what feelings? I had no feelings towards him, still I don’t know, what was that made me to cry.

My brother left me alone for a while. When he entered the room again, I was calm down, Was playing games on my mobile. Seeing me relaxed, he was searching something inside his bag. "what is that you are searching?" He said, "nothing I had misplaced my specs, so was searching for it." "Oh fine, Can I ask one thing? How did you get to know the news of Surya's death? How did he died?" He kept silence for a minute, "I got a SMS, I don’t have any idea about what happened." He said so much and moved out of the room. 

It So Happened - Part-9

Another day at college in library, I was making notes, heard a blast of laughter’s, it was bit louder. When i turn around to look who are those, who doesn't have so much of sense also,  I saw the breakfast guy with that accident girl at the corner of the reading section. This time my concentration was on that breakfast guy, though that beautiful girl was their I was not admiring her. I was admiring breakfast guy, how he was talking, the way he used to make his hair style proper, As i said earlier, he makes each day one hair style. He was looking very handsome, somewhat different today. Or I was feeling that he was looking different today, since today I was giving more concentration on how he is looking. They didn't stop laughing it continued for longer. I was unable to concentrate on what I was reading; I was unable to sit there. I got up and went near book rack to get some other book and get out of the library.

By the time, I picked some book and came near the librarian, even those two came near librarian, breakfast guy smiled and said, "hey hi, howz ur studies going on? you leave, you would top this time." I just smiled for his words and said, "hi..", Doesn't know, I wanted to ask him, how does he know that girl? When did they meet? When that accident happened, they both were strangers to each other, today so close friends that they spent the time in library together? I was thinking to ask him, by then he turned towards her and was saying some other joke, or some thing which made her to giggle again. I wonder, I just wanted to go out of the library as soon as possible. 

But was that jealous? What I felt? No way, I have no such great feeling, I am not jealous on any? Walking out of library, I thought, oh, he was the one, who brought the book from that mad person; he is such a monster, he bet the mad person and brought the book. I was feeling somewhat anger with him.

Still wasn't sure, was he the one?

At home, I wanted to ask my brother does him aware who was that person who took the book back from mad person? In turn wanted to ask, was the breakfast guy is the one? Since these both were friends, they would have shared their great works of what they do to impress the girls. I tried, but I was unable to ask him at night. 

Early morning, before my brother woke up, I woke up and was making my mind; I need to ask him anyway. My brother woke up and started laughing, "Has the sun raised from west side today? You woke up early than me? whatz the matter sis?". I said, you come for a walk, I shall say you. As we were walking, I maintained utmost silence, my brother tried to make me smile, so he said, "whatz the matter sis? You are so desperate to see that beautiful girl? so you woke early in the morning? Sis, In INDIA such lesbian affairs are not encouraged?", I smiled for his try. I said, "No Bro, not for her?" hearing to that he said, "then??? For whom sis? I never knew.. Who is that??" I smiled again and said, "Nonsense, stop, its not related to anyone here. I just wanted to know, whether you know, who got the book from mad person?". He said, "How would I know, am I any sort of astrologer or any sadhu to tell?"

I said, "i just wanted to know, whether you have any idea?", he felt something fishy in my words, He asked, "Hey are you suspecting me?? or Do you suspect on someone, whom I know?". He always get context of my question, I said, "yeah, no.. am not sure, But i feel, that guy.." I explained whom I was suspecting. My brother started to laugh loudly, he said, "Why are you so bothered about her and that guy sis? From so many days, I feel you are just wasting your time thinking all such nonsense. Concentrate on your externals. Why should this thing bother you sis?"

After hearing his words, i was sure of one thing, i am no more getting the answer for my question.