It So Happened - Part-12

As days passed, I too forgot about Surya's death. And I never saw that beautiful girl Sagarika or that mad person too. My brother was behaving normal. We, our family members went for sridi sai baba temple also. It was great time traveling and visiting many other temples. I was happy in my own world.

It seemed as if everything was some bad dream which I had. I never knew, in short span of time people really do forget the past. There was nothing past related to my life. But what happened till now, I don’t remember rather none makes me to remember it.

As usual me, my studies, family, that was only my world. I was enjoying my life. Still those moments, whatever happened seems to be mystery. I never asked my brother on that. I don’t want him to go to depressed mood again. His smile makes us smile; I wanted him to be happy always. He was as usual cracking jokes, making my parents and me smile always.

One afternoon in college, after the class, I was the last to leave the classroom. I took stairs and was moving ahead. I felt someone behind me was walking along with me, I mean someone was behind me, wasn't aware was that person following me or not. But felt he was walking with same pace, with some distance. Try to turn behind and look, I was unable to look at the face, it wasn't one person, they were two. Talking to each other they were moving. It made me somewhat scary. I slow down a bit, in turn wanted that person to move in front of me, so that I feel comfortable. I simply get scared for no reason. It’s my childhood behavior.

As those two guys passed by me. I was relaxed. I thought I simply got scared again. While those two guys were walking I observed one guy, He seems as if I have seen him before. I was wearing white shirt. I looked at his shirt collar. Might be I wanted to look at him. But something caught by eye sight at his collar. It had fresh blood stains on his collar, that guy was not bleeding. Goodness yaar, Doesn't know, I felt more scared. I bent my head took other way to avoid going behind those guys.

That day, I started to remember about Surya. While traveling to home, I was thinking about him. Did anyone kill him? How did he die? It’s almost 6 months now. No news about it. What did police do? Did they ever investigate? All such questions was triggering in my mind. Bus stopped at the traffic jam at circle. Same circle, where I used to see the mad person. It’s been so many days, I haven't seen him.

I looked all possible directions in search of that mad person. He came and went. As if his part was just to take the book of Sagarika and create a scene. Huh! Sagarika, where is she now a days. Yes, I too have stopped going to walking also. I never saw her.

At home, I didn't want to bring my thoughts in front of my brother and disturb him too. I was enjoying the time with my family members. At night had dreams about Surya, Sagarika and other person, the white collar person. I felt I saw that white collar person killing Surya that too in front of Sagarika, Saw her crying helplessly in middle of road. I felt like crying. I woke up. As I woke up and switched the light on.

My brother asked "What happened sis? Are you ok? Did u dream any bad dreams?" I answered, "Yes, it was a dream, but bro, How come you are so alert in this mid night, as soon as I switched the light, you are questioning me? Aren't you asleep?”

My brother stammered, "I.. I was sleeping, but some how woke up at same time, might be coincidence." I smiled, "Hmmm possible! It’s coincidence, that coincidence shouldn't be so much that we both dreamt same. “We laughed a bit. But we both didn't laugh from heart. My brother said, "Fine sis, Drink water, take god's name and sleep". I wondered why was he not bothered what was the dream I dreamt. I suppose he asked me before when I got such dreams. Why not today? Neither I was interested to say him.

I switched off the light and went to sleep. My sleep was disturbed. Wasn't able to sleep properly, I turned towards the wall, and with open eyes was looking at the wall. After a while, I saw a light reflection on the wall. From where is this light coming from. I turned slowly to look; I saw my brother's cell phone was emitting this light. He was chatting with someone. But who was it? At this late night who is it that my brother is messaging? I felt I should ask my brother. Then I felt I shouldn't, if he had something to share with me, then my brother would have said me. I shouldn't be a hitler to my brother, I turned back, closed my eyes and went for sleep.

One of my favourite song.....Anjali Anjali Anjali...

Anjali Anjali Anjali... chinna kanmani kanmani kanmani...(Anjali, Anjali, Anjali... little apple of the eye... apple of the eye... apple of the eye...)

kanmani literally means eye ball.. in this context, the singer is personifying the little girl as his eye ball.. can be understood
as the apple of his eyes
Anjali Anjali Anjali... minnum minmini minmini minmini...(Anjali Anjali Anjali... sparkling firefly firefly firefly)

Ammamma.. pillai kani...(Oh my... young fruit...)
(I think the usage of fruit refers to Lord Muruga's fight for the fruit of wisdom which he lost to Lord Ganesha. When he was angry standing on a hill, Avvaiyar consoled him that his knowledge at such a young age, the skill of teaching his father the meaning of "OM", makes him a fruit of wisdom himself. She gives him the name "Pazham nee" meaning "Fruit is you"... which became Pazhani... and the mountain on which he stood angrily is called Pazhani thereafter... So the singer is equating this young child to a fruit... showing how divine the kid is... In her baby ways she has taught the community lot of lessons in compassion, love, and tolerance... so its definitely just to confer her the title "pillai kani" ... I may be wrong guys.. please contribute your suggestions/corrections)Angamthaan... thanga kani...(her body parts... are golden fruits... )

Ponmani chinna chinna, kanmani minna minna...(Little golden pearl... apple of the eye.. as you sparkle...)

Konjida konjida varum kanne nee...(you are a dear one .. coming to us to play with us...)
Punnagai sinthida varum ponne nee...(you are a golden one... spilling laughter from your lips..)
Muthamizh thanthidum siru poove nee...(you are a little flower that offers us all three divisions of Thamizh... )
Kanpadum Kanpadum intha pon meni(all the evil eyes will cast their spell on this poor little golden skin)

Aagayam boomiyellam Iraivan undaakki vaithu...(After making the earth and the sky....)
Aasaithaan theeramale... unnai thanthaan amma(God made you soon after.... unable to control his temptation (after creating the earth and the sky)..)
Kanne un mel megam thaan... panneer thoovi neerattum...
(Sweetie... the clouds will sprinkle rose water on you and bathe you...)
Thulli thaavum maankutty... solli solli thaalaattum...
(Little jumping deer will sing a lullaby to you)Nadakkum nadaiyil oru pallaaakku....
(When you walk you are a pallak, a carriage carried by men)
Sirikkum pozhuthu oru mathaappu...
(When you laugh you are a sparkler (a handheld firework))Unathu azhagukkenna? raajathi...
(Oh what about your beauty?! dear)
Ulagam nadanthu varum kai katti
(The whole world will come after you with folded hands... (meaning the whole world will bow its head on seeing your beauty))
Varamal vantha thevathai...
(You're an angel that never visited the earth before...)
Ulavum intha velli thaaragai
(you are a wandering silver girl)

Poopola kannalethaan pesum singaara meni...
(Like a flower... speak with your eyes..)
Annam pol.. nammodu thaan... aadu eppothume...
(Like a swan... dance with us always...)

Vaanam vaazhum angel thaan...
(An angel that lives in the skies...)
vanna pappa anjali thaan...
(Colorful Anjali... thats her!)
Amma nenjil oonjal thaan...
(Swinging on a joola in mother's heart...)
aadi pakkum anjali thaan...
(Little anjali will try to do it (swinging on a joola....))


Nadanthu nadanthu varum poochendu...
(A bouquet that comes walking)
paranthu paranthu varum ponvandu...
(a golden bee that comes flying...)
edukka edukka iru kai kondu...
(to take with both hands...)
inikka inikka oru karkandu...
((she is a ).. a tasty little sugar crystal)

Nilavai pola aadi va...
(Come dancing like the moon)
Nillamaal kooda neeyum odi vaa...
(you two come running with the moon without stopping...)


Reference:
http://kdmbri.blogspot.in/2011/03/anjali-anjali-anjali.html

It So Happened - Part -11

My mind was still thinking about Surya, The way he used to talk with all and me, He was such a humorous person. I liked to hear his jokes. Only one thing I didn't like was he talking with that beautiful girl. I wasn't jealous, I just didn't like it. Oh yeah, did that girl would have come to know about this news? she would have got to know, after all he was talking so close with her, as if they were good friends.

With my vacations, I forgot about Surya's death also. When I returned my college, New days again, was feeling as if the trees in college were blowing wind and swinging to welcome me. It was windy season, Cool breeze around college, because of so many trees, made all happy to be at college back. 

We friends were chit chatting, about the exam papers, vacations, where each of us had been, how we spent our time. One among them said, "Did you all get to know about Surya? He is no more now, heard it was murder case it seems". That shocked me again, "what? murder? Is that true? how did you get to know? Who killed him?" She responded, "Am not sure, heard the rumor, don’t have any other details about it. But yeah, have seen police coming to our college, today also had seen one talking something with our principal" None other talked on that topic.

My brother was his friend, he would have got the news, if it so. If its rumor also, he would have got that news, why didn't he discuss with me? Now a day, he never talks to me at all properly. I shall check with him today. Yeah if it’s a murder, who had so much enmity with Surya, he was easy going cool guy. He had no such grudges with any, as much I know; he had friendly relationship with all.

Evening stood in front of my brother and begun, "You knew there is a rumor that Surya's death was a murder, Now don’t say, you don't know, When I can come to hear that rumor, you also would have heard before me, since you guys were friends, Moreover, you know much more than that, Why don’t you share with me? now a days I feel, you are ignoring me, thatz fine, I just wanted know about Surya, is the rumor true? Was he murder?" My brother silence followed still after me asking so many questions. "I am asking you something, would you please mind to say some words?" He still kept silence. "I am enough with you bro? Why are you behaving like this, Please say something? Is that true? at least say is that true?". He opened, "Yes it’s true, he was murder, He was murder." he moved out of the room. He might have come back late night; I don’t know when he came. Morning also he went to walk early; he was supposed to be back to home by one hour of walk. He didn't return still, I was waiting at home. Then felt, why am I making this issue such a big, Surya is no where related to me. I shouldn't make myself tensed and moved with my other work.

Evening again, I got to talk with my brother, now a days, talking with own brother is difficult. As soon as he came to house, my mother called him for dinner. It was so late. "Wash your face and hands and come to have your dinner, I don’t know what you had taken from yesterday." Then I got to know, yesterday night, my brother didn't come to home. When he approached the dining table, even I came near him. His face had become so pale. I said, "Mom, Ranjan has become so weak, why mom you wont give him any food?, What Ranjan, are you dieting to impress any girl? tell tell, let me know, tell me secretly I shall keep secret." I giggled a bit. My brother was seriously silent. My mother looked at him and said, "Sanjana, keep quite don’t try to pull his legs, he is somewhat depressed from past many days. he is not taking food also now a days. He is eating something today that itself is great." I remained silent. I wasn't able to understand why was my brother so silent?