A sonnet on stupid thoughts

Heart feels heavy, many things to share,
Response for my words is unaware.
Heart says a lot, does nothing,
Laziness conquers, leading life to swing.
What am I? what are my desires,
Fills mind with such enquires.
Heart had come across many such contradictions,
Kept moving, with just one determination,
Unable to find whatz that determination strives,
Moving, hoping for achievement that relieves.
Failures are stepping stones,
Heart quotes this with inspiring tones.
All I know is a smile and laugh for a day,
Is enough to live in this world in happy:)

Trying to heal your absence - dedicated to my mom

Eyes still searching around,
With rolling tears,without a sound.

Though heart knew, it would be in vain,
Do foolish acts, to reduce unbearable pain.

Tried to convince, impossibility of survival without thou,
You never took serious, ignored stating me as a fou,

Now, impossibilities is in front of me,
Unable to express you, my tears are true,

From day one, Its become a habit,
Awaiting your interference in all my bit.

Silently crying innermost to break my heart into pieces,
To burst out, so that I would heal your absences.

Fate, Love, Oath

Love deceived peoples in the world,
Would blame their mate in their own word,

Heart would never ever curse thou,
Nor try to explain my feelings towards you,

Thinking u, the one who taught me, what is love?
Getting once love should be in fate,

Fate made us to sink with our frequencies,
Its the same which brought the differences,

You picked up speed and made up to reach heights,
I am lagging behind in your remembrance, Still am in delight,

As I hope, once would make the crest to touch the sky,
And the trough to the deepest point of ocean with my ability,

At the tip of the crest would find myself in zeal,
At the tip of trough, would feel your presence to heal..

Its true, Rage inside persists, without harming both,
As true as, Fate which was not so with both, to have an oath.