Confused state of mind....

When mind goes round....

Confused state!!! If answer is doesn't know.. that means, I am in confused state..
confused whether to move on in life or to stay back in life.. confused am I..with my thoughts..????

Sorry for all, for everybody..
Unaware.. cant behave as innocent nor a matured one....
Aware whatz right, Still mind is not accepting..
Aware whatz best, Still mind is not accepting..
Aware its not the end, Still mind is not accepting...

Oh god, Oh heavenly lord...Bless me..guide me...
Whatever I prayed to you, is never obtain.. I am exhausted God..
End this game.. End my game..

Cant say such words, its shows that... I am coward..Coward to accept and move on in life..
Its not true...
I am wrong in my deeds..
I am wrong in my virtue...
I am wrong in my thoughts...

When all is wrong..Heart says..stop.. stop, Since everything is lost..
Today read one quote....smiled a bit...
it was " When everything is lost...There is still future in front..."
So true is that words.. But life has to move on... is not possible in my case.....
What should I do?? end??? no... survive and prove......that i too deserve to be here..

Such confusions..no answer for anything..All goes dumb............ deaf............ and blind.........
I have no rights to survive??..No all human have their right to survive..
Then I am not a human???

Haven't harm any?? Still I suffer.. for what??? why??? why???
No answers where ever I go...

Haven't harm anyone in life.. Still .........................................................

Please take me with YOU ;)

Suffering to say few words to my mother,
Trembling lips and hands, moving together,

Found myself as princess in her beautiful eyes,
Her answer for all my demands was always a yes,

Will that be same, when I say my word,
Maa hear, I need your reply to take my step forward,

I love you, I always desired to be away from you,
Though I tried, I never stayed without you,
Please Maa, Please take me with YOU ;)

A memorable moment

Blew by wind to heavenly place, led by god
Realized am not an angel nor fairy, to fill any life with pleasure,
Neither a Princess nor Goddess, to make any one's presence proud,
Neither a rose nor jasmine, to fill fragrance around any,
A withered, dead, dry flower, with no fragrance, no life,

Blew by wind to heavenly place,
Promising god to be back, I made my way towards you.
Swirling around you, made your eye to catch my sight,
Enjoyed the pleasure of being yours, just your own,
When thy hand stretched towards me, to feel me,

Blew by wind to heavenly place,
Fell at your feet, within glimpses of your eye,
kissed your feet, Small quavering voice after long time,
With tears in eyes, and vision blurred,
Made a memorable note, Your arms deserve an angel not me.

Blew by wind to heavenly place,
Made my words to float in air, for few minutes, until I quit,
Thank you charm, Thank you, making me feel to be yours, in my dreams,
Marking it the last memorable moment, I lived with you,
Back to my promise, blew by wind to heavenly place, my last destination.